Goodbye

Saying goodbye,

The moment I dread

Now stares me in the face

Daring and taunting me.

I’m not ready.

I’m can’t do it.

I can’t leave.

My only response;

Tears.

Tears welling up in my eyes,

I’m afraid if I cry,

They will too. 

I hold it back. 

For one day.

One night.

Then I couldn’t.

Two months 

Flew by.

It wasn’t enough.

It is never enough.

I am rope.

Being tugged by India 

And 

America.

I have no choice.

I have something 

Someone 

Waiting for me there.

But they on the other hand

Have nothing to go back to.

I collapsed.

The tears I tried 

To hold back

Flew out like a waterfall

On my cheek.

My face is sticky and

Wet. 

I see other drops

Trickling down 

Someone else’s cheeks.

I bawl.

I weep.

My day quickly fades into 

Darkness.

I wave my hand

Goodbye.

Scared.

Not knowing when I will

see them next.

There is FaceTime

And Skype

And Whatsapp

And Hangouts.

But it’s just a screen.

I want to embrace them

Talk to them

Feel their presence.

Alas,

I have to think positive.

I am back and in school.

My life continues.

I’m fine.

They are fine.

I want to visit them again,

But skip the goodbye.

I hate the goodbye.